生活中充滿來自各方的壓力，抒發的方式各有不同。一旦緩解的方法成為持續不斷的誘惑，行為依賴和物質濫用帶來不良後果，不只會破壞一個人的身體，也連累週遭所有人的生活。

 

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或許你一無所知，或許你深有所感；或許你迷失方向，又或者已重拾自我，都請讓這首《成癮之詩》感動你一次。

 

 

《Addiction Poem》

 

So this is living

這就是生活

Every single day is like a blessing we've been given

每一天都像上蒼恩賜的祝福

I keep my scars hidden behind the bars of this prison

我把傷痕藏匿，在這座監獄鐵欄後

I keep my flaws tucked, right behind my front, sucking up this blunt

我將缺點收妥，在我的正後方，學著遲鈍以對

I don't give a

我一點都不在乎

Hey what's up

嘿近來可好

How you been

過得怎樣

Cool man I'm doing me

還不賴我只是在當我

Chiller than the Artic but burning like a third degree

比北極還冷靜，身心同時劇痛如遭逼供

I'm open like a surgery

坦蕩得像躺在手術台上被任人宰割

I'm searching for a crutch

我在尋找一根拐杖

It's as natural as putting antiseptic on a cut

自然地就像消毒傷口

Heal me

治癒我

I fiend for my fix

我視我的窘境為惡魔

There's a void on the inside

一片空蕩蕩的內在

I fill it up with fluff to avoid where my sins lie

我用各種錯誤填補，免得罪惡降臨此處

I'm talking puppy dogs and ice cream

我說的是小狗和冰淇淋

Caffeine, nicotine, puffing on a pipe dream

咖啡因、尼古丁、吐出一管美夢

Daddy needs a new pair of anything

爸爸需要一雙新東西

Maybe you relate

或許你能體會

Lay your head upon my pillow, wake up with a clean slate

躺上自己的枕頭，醒來卻枕著石板

I thought that if I found out who I was

我曾想，如果我發現自己是誰

Away from anything I'd ever tried to use to catch a buzz

便要遠離我用來讓自己好過的所有東西

I would build a better me

我要成為更好的自己

So I did

所以我這麼做了

Delving into all of the hurt I had hid since a kid

探尋自小時候藏起的所有傷害

Everytime I felt the urge I would hold on

每當感到衝動，我會堅持下去

I want to reach the other side, my goal's to be headstrong

我想越過界線踏足彼岸，我的目標是不受拘束

When right feels dead wrong

當是非顛倒

When night feels too long

當長夜漫漫

When life feels too long

當人生難熬

When hindsight is blinding and reminding us to hold on

當後見之明也漸漸熄滅，提醒我們要堅持下去

You're not alone

你並不孤獨

We've all been there together

我們都曾一同經歷

We're facing the storm because bad weather ain't forever

我們面對狂風暴雨，因為壞天氣不會永遠持續

We're breaking the norm

我們打破成規

To see if maybe there is more

想發現外頭也許有更多

But we'll never know until we're on the other side of that door

但是我們永遠不會知曉，除非真到達門的另一側

I don't want to use you for anything

我不想為了任何目的利用你

Abuse you for anything

為了任何目的濫用你

Or lose you to anything

或因你失去任何東西

Love is not obsession, there are no strings attached

愛不是著迷，愛沒有附加條件

So I can’t love you if I'm like yeah but there's a catch

所以我不能愛你，如果一切只是建立在問題上的完美假象

I want freedom from desire because this moment is real

我想要從渴望自由，因為這一刻是真實的

They speak about courage but they don't own how they feel

他們談論勇氣，但是他們並不擁有他們的感覺

I want to scream truth

我想要尖叫出真相

Just to hear it echo back

聽著回聲傳來

I don't need your validation this is truly where I'm at

我真的在這裡，不需要你的驗證

See this poem is for the lost and the found

這首詩為那些迷失方向的人而寫、為那些重拾自我的人而寫

Who've been tossed to the ground

為那些曾被棄之如敝屣的人而寫

Who've been crossed by their friends

為那些曾遭到朋友拋下的人而寫

Get up stand your ground again

再一次爬起來，靠自己站立吧

Make your heart the strongest muscle that you've got

將你的心練成全身最強的部位

Then let it guide you in the dark

讓它在黑暗中引導你

Until you reach the other side

直到你踏足彼岸

 

 

這首詩由洛杉磯詩人IN-Q創作，德州長期戒毒中心Burning Tree拍攝短片，翻譯有誤歡迎指正。

 

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成癮的範圍很廣，包括但不限於酒精、藥物、網路、遊戲、賭博、性愛、進食、購物、整形等，需索無度最後導致自己受到行為或物質控制的情況，相信在現實生活中很常發生。

 

預防和重建都是一件大事，最令人敬佩的無非堅持下去的毅力。希望這支影片能帶給世界一些震撼，直視成癮問題和困境。

 

 

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